At the risk of sounding a little bit self involved, you may have noticed that I haven't been blogging for the past five weeks, and my other social media kind of ground to a halt for a while too... I had a few messages asking how I was, if I was okay, so first of all, right now I am fine, thank you for asking.

I questioned wether to write this post or not. I don't share much of my personal life and thoughts on here really, but to just jump back into the blog with a product review would have felt a little fake if I'm honest... I feel like I owe somewhat of an explanation, and although I'm not going into any details, I definitely want to get a few things off my chest.

The blogging/Tweeting break wasn't planned, my life took a slight detour from the usual what had come to be sometimes boring, into a bit of a fenzy which I kept to myself but let my reality and people around me suffer. 
Maybe I encountered a slight break down (or something minor along those lines, I don't want to sound too dramatic!), reaching for reassurance in the wrong people or things without realising, which resulted in heartbreak.

In January I was made redundant from my much loved position with Mango, and initially I looked at it with the mindset that everything happens for a reason, I will enjoy some time with the family, get lots of blogging done etc etc. However this wasn't really the case, I'm usually a really positive, chilled out person but although I didn't realise at the time, the loss of my beloved career was going to cause me to act out of character and ruin things for myself and some others.

What has happened over the past month has opened my eyes and made me realise that I am just too trusting. I have been hurt massively, manipulated, used, targeted when I was weak and left feeling rather stupid and upset at the end of it all. Although this is probably all just a big ramble to anyone reading it, please don't ever make someone your priority when they are not willing to make you theirs... Realise that the person who makes you their priority is the one you need. Be aware that social media can be dangerous, and don't get swept up in your emotions... think things through and be sure.

It's taken me a long time to get over things, move on and actually feel ready and brave enough to come back to blogging. I've slowly eased myself back in with my Twitter and Instagram though, and now I feel like I'm almost back to being me, and I'm definitely at the point where I want to blog again - I've missed it so much!!
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