This year is a big one for me, both professionally and personally and for once I am putting myself (and my beautiful Elodie of course) first. I've decided to make some changes in my life which will hopefully in turn make me a much happier person.
Last year saw me finally take my blog from my long time hobby to full time career. It was a risk I had been wanting to take for a very long time, and when I found myself made redundant I just took the opportunity with both hands and thought of it as a bit of a now or never moment.
Thankfully, that decision paid off, and although full time blogging has come with some struggle and a lot of adjusting to, I couldn't be happier with where I am now with my little old blog, I can't believe it's been a year already!
Personally I want a lot to change with myself this upcoming year, physically and mentally.
Firstly my hair will be the first big change. I am getting my hair cut and coloured soon and I can't wait for a whole style refresh, it has been a long time coming.
I don't come across as the most confident person... I'm quite quiet and I like to keep myself to myself. In some ways I think that I use my hair as a bit of a shield and I really want to step out of my comfort zone and feel good about myself again... I think it's been too long since I felt genuinely good about myself and that really shouldn't be the case.
I'm also going to look at improving my overall fitness, which I think will help massively into making me feel better about myself as a whole. I'm not planning on hitting the gym for hours every day, because for me and my lifestyle that's really not achievable. I've lost quite a bit of weight recently, and want to work hard at keeping it off and toning up. It's not going to be about starting any fad diets, I'm just going to focus on looking after my body and making healthier lifestyle choices.
I do want to do more physically though. Blogging full time has meant that I move a lot less than I used to, which is inevitable when going from working a 45 hour week in a retail environment to tapping away on my laptop most days, but the way I look at it is that there are ways to include fitness into my day to day routine, I just need to work out the best way for me.
Personally I can feel how much my body has changed recently, I'm not sure how much you can tell just from photographs of me on here, but it's starting to improve my whole mood and I do feel a little better in myself already.
The way I dress often reflects my mood, and if I'm comfortable in what I'm wearing, then I will feel more confident. One thing I do struggle with is getting a good pair of ladies jeans. I was recently surprised to find Simply Be stock jeans starting at a UK size 10 and I've been wearing a couple of pairs from their collection pretty much constantly ever since. The denim is quite thick, but still soft and of lovely quality, and there are so many styles to choose from, I'm sure there's something to suit everyone's taste.
Mentally I just feel as though I need a fresh start, so for me the turn of the new year couldn't have come quick enough. I've never said 'new year, new me' before in my life, but this year it's been really prominent in my mind and although I'm a strong believer that if you want to make a change, then you shouldn't wait, for me, the new year just fell at a time when I'm ready to make those changes.
I'm going to rebuild friendships that have drifted slightly, reconnect with people who bring out the best in me and really focus on being happy.
I am also going to treat myself now and again - I work very hard and don't really reward myself, so if I want to buy something for myself now and again, I will. I'm also going to do things for fun, for me and not let myself feel guilty about it.
One thing that always makes me feel good is my relationship with Elodie. She makes me so, so proud every day and I look at her all of the time with such love and adoration and she makes me realise that I must be doing as good job as a parent, which is really all I need.
I am going to make a conscious decision to find the positive in everything I do, find things to feel proud of and good about, rather than beating myself up about the little things that maybe aren't as perfect as they could be (and lets face it, most people don't notice when things go wrong unless you point it out to them).
Without realising I have become quite a worrier... I've never been diagnosed with anxiety or panic attacks, but I would go as far as saying that I think I am a sufferer in some form. I worry about everything, and I don't know why. I panic about social situations and unless things go exactly to plan and work out how I imagine them doing so, I can't cope. Maybe it's the unknown I don't like, but I hate this about myself, and I get angry at myself for backing out of opportunities and letting others down. Although it's not something I do on purpose, I'm going to try my best to phase this out of my life and say yes to doing things to benefit me more often (though it might not be quite that easy, I'll try).
I couldn't really talk about positivity without mentioning negativity could I?.. Basically, I hate negativity. I'm sick of seeing and hearing about it in the blogging world, it really gets me down.
I plan on keeping well away from any negativity be it related to blogging or elsewhere. I'm past any childish behaviour, I think once you reach a certain age you completely change your views and realise what's important and what isn't.
I will also be removing any negativity from my own mind and life as much as I possibly can. I truly believe that people who bring negativity to bring you down really aren't worth you time or energy, it's time to focus on the good.
What I'm Wearing: Top: Boohoo / Jacket: New Look / Jeans: Simply Be / Boots: Primark / Bag: Accessorize
How have the first few weeks of 2017 been for you all so far?
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